I Am Alive

January 1992

Each line of this poem represents a sharp contrast of character and the confusion I was feeling at the time about who I was.  Trying to reconcile the past with the present, and how that all would shape my future.  God gave me moments of refreshing and hope, even though I was becoming confused about my faith and myself.  I have always had the tendency to pretend that everything was alright, and not deal with the important issues.  I believe this poem reflects that.

I Am Alive

I am empty, I am full

I am exciting, I am dull

I am confused, I am free

I am the wind, I am a tree

Reaching to the sunlit sky,

Bowing at the ground, I die.

Pained for all that I have endured

Loved for all that I have cured.

I have done, I have begun.

I have lost, but I have won...

Love, hope, peace, and laughter

And lost, well what does it matter?

It is for tomorrow that I strive

Because today I am alive!