I also wrote this for my literature class in 9th grade. I think it captured my idealistic view of life ~ something I held onto for many years to come. It gave me a sense of security. I knew it wasn't realistic, but I didn't know how else to view life at the time. The reality of relationships in my life was too confusing for me, so I thought if I just created a perfect future then my past experiences wouldn't matter.
My dreams are the most essential things in my life. They are what keep me from giving up when things get rough. I don't mean the dreams I have when I am asleep, I mean the daydreams. I dream about what I want to do with my life. I dream about what kind of person I want to spend my life with, and what kind of person I want to be. I dream about what kind of occupation I want to strive for, what I want my first home to look like,a nd how I want to raise my family. In my dreams everything is perfect. Everyone loves, cares and helps each other. I achieve my goals and have a very happy life. I know my dreams are not very realistic because no one can have the perfect life that I dream of. But I still dream them. And I will always try to make them ome true.
Friends are also very important to me. When I feel lonely or sad they are always there to cheer me up. Especially my best friend. Without her I would be lost. She is always there for me when I need someone to talk to. She likes me just the way I am and doesn't try to change me. When I feel sad she cheers me up with her smile, and when I feel like having fun we have a great time! We don't always agree on everything, but we respect each other's opinion. She is very special to me and always will be.
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The summer after I graduated from high school I got involved in a bible study through the Church of Christ. It was the first time that I had truly seen Jesus ~ in the faces and the lives of the friends I made there. I wanted what they had. Their faith was alive and their relationship with the Lord was vibrant. I began to really grow close to the Lord and He began to change my heart and transform my life and my identity. The following year I fell in love for the first time. Tony was a huge influence on me spiritually and personally. He had a solid foundation of faith and he lived it out. we went to church and bible study together at First Baptist Church, where I became a member. By the time I came to Winona, at the age of 20, I was on fire for the Lord! I was water baptized the Sunday before I left for college. It was a very precious experience. I remember feeling so at peace, loved and accepted.